Life

is amazing =]
even though school's almost over and there will be 203957 people that i'll never ever see again. But i wont forget em =] any of em.

ahhh i love everything.

blacklight dance on friday =D can't wait.

Brea is-

At school. Sitting next to tiffiny and jordan =]

Last night was so crazy,
Derek drove me to Anoka to seeeee Ryan<3
Crazyness. haha
We got lost... arrived like an hour late. Sooo worth it.
He played epic songs at his concert dealio.
everyone in the audience was craaazy lame. craaaazy.

good times. =]

Sorry blogspot, i forgot about you.

-brea

Sunday Sunday;

I love life =D

Dear Kate,

You are nothing but a disappointment.

I hope somebody knocks your ass out soon so you can have a fucking reality check.
You're not as cool as you think. Nobody thinks your bitch attitude is appealing. You're seriously wasting your time with drugs. What has it done for you? Got you away from reality? good job pussyasscunt. I hope you're happy with yourself.
Personally, i dont give a damn anymore. You're not going anywhere with your life while IM actually going somewhere. have fun with your future, dumbass. i wont be in it. =]

I laugh at the fact that you fail at life. Sorry, you're not my problem anymore.
Sort your shit out by your own damn self, you just lost your best friend.
too bad you cant make new ones cuz you'd rather do drugs.
hahaha, you're such a waste of life.

oh, by the way. examine yourself before you run your mouth.

if you think you're hot shit and blow off what i've said, you're so pointless to everyone.

But hey, you never listen to what i say anyway. So, go do drugs. Please. I can just laugh harder when you finally realize how worthless you are when you're 30, fat, broke, single, ugly as hell, and on cocaine.

Have a good one buddy, I'm gunna go do something with my life =D
-brea

So right now;

Alex and Braden are still here...
They finally included me in their jam.
So now I'm sitting in the garage with these crazy kids..... trying to write.
not working.

(i dont even know why braden's here... he sucks at life)

iloveryan.
he's getting grounded tomorrow =[
efff my liiiife.

wooo paramore time =D

-brea

Today was weird-

Painting - Hour and a half long heart-to-heart with Tiffiny talking about our lives and our beliefs.

Biology - Genetics. Trisha and Kailey, Oh man =] We failed the test together. =] 20/54? 30/54? 33/54? We all know who won there... THE BLONDE ONE. ahaha They're so crazy. We're in a "band" called BTK (not the killer, Brea Trisha Kailey. hahaa) We're like nsync without the homo. XD i play sax, btw. Maaaaaaan You guys make my day =PPPP

Chemistry - Crazy HCL + AL lab. OMG, explosions. Andrew looks cute in see-through dresses =] TAKE OFF YOUR PANTS.

English - Drama =[ Nihilio! =D Ethnography project EXCITEMENT.

Home - Dumb doggg. Cute boyfriend whom i love. Crazyass cody. Nasty dinner. GETTIN WARDROBE FOR TOMORROW =DDDD ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Go life. =]

-Brea <3

Lack of sleep?

So today was INSANE!!!

Woke up late,
Had to get a ride into schoolio.
SUCKED.
Couldnt drink my coffee, too busy painting Framing Hanley.
Blahblah Biology, TestTestTest.
Lunch = Fun. Kaleb is hilarious.
Chemistry, GREAT. Brian and I are friendskies again =DDDD Wooo,
I realized it takes tooo much time and effffort to hate someone xD

Passing time.... the weardest thing happened. I was already shitfaced tired, so i was all like spaaacing out talking to peter, when i got hit in the head, then someone grabbed my hair to mess it up, my 1st reaction is to bend down and freak out, so i did. then when my face was pointed towards the ground i was pushed into this circle of people that wouldnt stop spinning me around and pushing me everywhere when FINALLY, Tiffiny saved me.

Fuck tiffiny,
I love you.

It was the craziest shit in the world,
i didnt know what the fuck was going on.
LOVED IT. haha

So, English... TestTestTest I ACED IT btw. =]
Go Brea!

Thennnnnn i rode the busss with mybestfriend Steph. She's so hilarious,
God i love her. =P
We do the craziest shit.

That was my day for anyone who cares.
=D

-breah

What the truck

Things have changed...

Maybe it's just my imagination.


Oh wellll,
It's so worth it.

I love him. =]
I love youuuu.

Youuuuu.

-brea

Ahhh... blah;

Sometimes i wonder if what people tell me is the truth.

I know lies are everywhere, but who's to say there's really anything legit in the world.

Maybe i shouldnt even care....
it's just the internet.

Right?

Ugh... I think we're on different levels... and im above his.

=/

-brea

------

Just got done with a STUPID biology paper.



waste of time.

Schooltizzle-

So... Me and tiffiny are at school riiiiight now.

Painting class.


Boring as explitive.

blahblahblah

I LOVE METH
and tiffiny


-brea

Understanding the World Pt. 3 [Depression]

Today has been a depressing day.

If you don't know me very well,
I absolutely love giving advice and helping people. even if its just a person they can vent to, im here. ill listen.
im extremely understanding.

So today, a few people talked to me about the feeling of being inadequate to the world.

I would like to let each and every one of you know,
You're not. At all.

You are EVERYTHING to the world. The future of every human being is all based on each individual.
Each person means something to the world, whether it be big or small.

Depression isn getting to be a major issue.

So, here's my advice to everyone who's depressed right now:
LET IT OUT.
You could tell me,
You could tell your family,
You could tell your closest friend.

Get someone else's outlook on the situation.
If you don't know why you're depressed, Get some ice cream. If you cant eat ice cream cuz your on some crazy diet, That's probably why you're depressed, so do it anyway.

Point being,
everyone gets depressed. but trust me, the hours you spend happy will drastically outweigh the hours you spend sad if you just look on the bright side.

So open up.

If there's one person in the world that will always be there for you
It's me.
Trust me.

Understanding the World Pt. 2 [i love you?]

So, i was in the car with two good friends of mine driving to Mora,
and we started having this conversation about Love.

And i have a question that seriously needs to be asked... but it's impossible to answer.

Does anyone really know what love is?

I've heard it all comes down to being happy with someone.
I've heard it's making sacrifices for that person.
I've heard it doesnt matter whether you're happy or not, it is how it is.
I've heard so many different things and in reality, definitions are all over the place.

But why can't it be all of the above?
You can be unhappy for a day or two, and then get over it and be happy.
You can make sacrifice after sacrifice along the way.
What if having the ultimate love for someone means sacrificing YOUR happiness, for theirs?

People throw around the term "love" like it's just another word to be drenched in ironic literary terms.

If you say it, mean it.

Heartbreak isn't an option anymore.

-brea

bleepbloop; new hair

whompwhompwhomp

tonight is april mayhem at my school
HUGEass concert deal,

it may be lame,
it may be epic,

we shall see.

dyed my hair crayzay last night:

Brea 2.0;

As many of you know,
Im a nice kid.

I'd sacrifice anything for the sake of any one of you.

Well,
im changing that. Im fed up with getting used.
everything i've done has gotten me left behind in the world while everyone else advances.
im not getting anything this way.
people have proved manymany times that i can help them as much as possible, but whenever its my turn to be helped, i get nothing.

So here's how im going to fix it:
I DONT CARE.

Keep your problems to yourself.

-brea.

Well today...

SUCKED. not really, but kinda.
I was just super angry at the world, but it still was a good day.

i reallywannapunchmoreface.

xD

Tomorrow = Anoka? North Branch Battle of the Bands. Cambridge. Mora?
Yeah. lol

so... message me if you want innnn.
=]

ily allll
-brea

Understanding the World (pt. 1) [i love you]

There are few things in this world that keep me sane.
One of them being music. Music in all forms.
The others are simply people.
Four people stand out;
I thought i'd take a little time to express my appreciation for them here.
it's not much but... i think you'll get the message.

Cathrine- My sister. My mindtwin. My Best Friend. We've worked hard for that title. Through everything and everything we've stuck it out. My favorite memories are memories with you. My favorite stories are stories with you. We grew up together. We know everything about eachother, without you i'd honestly be so lost. You keep me grounded. you keep me honest. No matter what happens you'll always be my sister, but i am proud to call you My Best Friend.

Ryan- If there was one thing in this world that keeps me at peace, it's your laugh. Most of the time im pretty sure you're laughing at how lame i am, but i dont care. You are so different, and i know it may be a bit cliche, but it wouldnt have been coined a cliche if it wasnt real. i feel like i can tell you everything, i may not get the response i was looking for, but it's something. It feels like i've known you forever, even if its only been weeks. you constantly make me smile, you constantly make me feel all tingly inside. it seems as a human, i wish for manymany things, and right now.. it seems everything i wish for revolves around you. i know you're probably reading this with a dorkass smile on your face, i want you to know that this is real. we'll go far. i know it. every time i talk to you, i wish it'd never end. i wish i could be there for you, for everything. so lets dork it up as much as possible =]

Steph- Omigosh. Steph,steph,steph. You are thee funnest chick ever. You're sooo awesomeeee. everything we do is so chill. I swear, me and you could make anythinganythinganything fun. Taking myspace surveys =] watching sean of the dead,
eating those weird chocolate booze things. =X painting up a storm. it may seem stupid to the outside world, but when you're in.... wow. i can't even describe how much fun you are. xD you are my best friend, and i wouldnt have it any other way.

Alex- Ever since we were kids, you were always the crazy one. You never shut up. You never listened to parental figures. You did your own thing, and got away with it. You can talk your way out of anyyything. Thats what i love =] every single day we hang out, its such an adventure. Sitting in my living room with guitars is an adventure in its own. Fond memories that i will neverever forget. I know we've sort of grown apart over the last couple months and im sorry. I want my best friend back, Alex. You were everything in my life. You're one of the few people that know the real me, and will stick around anyway. you always made me laugh in the stupidest ways possible. you could make washing dishes the funnest thing in the world. you're the only one that can talk me into packing my bags and roadtripping to canada for a weekend. i need you back in my life. Please. i miss my bestie.


And to Carissa:
I dont know if you'll read this but... i miss you. i miss our stupid conversations. i miss playing Dr. Phil with you and brian in random bathrooms. i wish i could take everything i said back. you'll always have a spot under "best friend" in my life. i hope one of these days you'll forgive me for being so selfish.

i love each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart.

goodnight world
-brea

Good day;

Todayyyyy,
I had those damn MCA tests. dumbdumbdumb.
my hairrrr didnt work allll day so i wore a hat around town xD ahhhh good times
btw,
the only hat i own is the same color as my hair....... that worked.

so that was a little weirdddd.

uhm,
after schoolio i walked around town.
saw some people.

made a new best friend =D
his name's dave. he's the coolest.

ummm.... iiiii went shopping and bought like 2560238 pounds of makeup.

then i came home to my lovelyyyy dogggg that bites my ankles.
=]

lovelylovelylovely
-brea

Todah;

The 1st Constructive meeting of our untitled businessssss


wish us luck.
-brea

Good night;

Twas a good Easter.

Even though i totally lost the REAL meaning of today,
i spent the majority of it with my best friend Steph Stich.

First, we did our hair&makeup fer nooo reason xD took some pics, none of them worked out though.
Second, We ate chickennnn and salads with her family.
Thirdlyyy, We stole the TV from her brotherrrr but we ended up eating those booze flavored chocolates and then giggling about nothing fer everrrrrr.
Then we went on the interweb and called like 259762 people xD

And then... it was magical,
We took out all the paint and the sketchpads, pictionary and Fact or Crap, we spread out all the pencilsss and brushessss and got to work.
We drew eachother
finger painted
made decisions about our future


It was a really good night.

Happy Easter

oh yea:
Today, im going to my faggoty ass gramma's house. =[
noooooo
she smells like baby powder and old soup.
oooh goddddd save me D=


mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmm mmm bunnys.

-brea

Thought of the day:

i don't even know why i have friends.
i am SUCH a faggotron.

Dear Boys: You Win.

bloggyblogbloggereno.

hola bebe. ;]


GOTCHA.
-brea

Wow;

It seems whenever i'm truely happy with the world,
the world goes to shit.

last night after talking to Cathrine i was like HELL YEAAAHHH i love life!!!
and then i went to school with the same attitude and people just spit in my face.

i was ignored all day.
whenever people did talk to me, they were all mysterious.
like they'd tell me something but then not tell me why. or who. or how!?
like... idk.

steph was all "chris isn't sorry" and im like....... fer what? and i got no answer.
jordan was all "this guy reallyreally likes you" im like.... who? and i got no answer.
allllll charley said was "exactly"............. seriously? like... really?


ugh.

whatever. =/

FUTURE here i come;

So, i just got off the phone with Cathrine.

We just got supersuper excited about life.

We're bringing back our clothing line (EKK) with a little more pizzaz =D
We're starting up our music industry again =D
We're going to GET INTO school. Totally. =D
We're looking into that college for tattoo artistry in lousiana. =D
We're planning 3 roadtrips for the summer. =D
We're planning on getting summer jobs. (flexible summer jobs) =D
We're bringing back the old brea-cathrine combo.

look out world
we're gunna kick your ass.

-breaaaaa
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

=/

i miss those days. i've done stupid things in my life, but i ever lost friends because of it. Now i have. Im sorry im not perfect. I'm sorry you're not perfect. I just want to go back to a time where all we did was laugh and have fun together. No lies. No third wheels. No drama. Why does everything always have to be so complicated!? After everything that happened, I don't regret a single word. I dont regret a single day. I never thought i could doubt the term "Best friend"

=[

suck.

This boy;

omggggggggggggggggggg




this cant be real.

My heart was stolen (story time)

So, i havent blogged in like FEREVER.

So here you gooooo creepers:

Last night... omg. I can't even explain how mindblowingly epic it was.

It was the day of Carissa's birthday party
I woke up and told myself "be happayyyy with everything today. it'll be great."
so i was all smiles until i did the worst thing possible.

I had this whole elaborate plan to pick up the most amazing boy everrrr and go to the party.

So, whilst i was basking in the sunlight of the afternoon,
I sent my Carissa's boyfriend a text asking to have a truce for today. No fighting, No drama, FOR CARISSA since you know... the birthday. If you don't know Brian, He is UNBELIEVABLY self-centered. He uninvited me. He had the nerve to tell me carissa wasnt my friend anymore, even though HE CANT CONTROLE HER. sorry, it's not your call, retard.

I was crying for a good 10 minutes when my sister called. She told me she couldnt go, which meant no party. no amazing boy. no saturday night out.
Blahblahblah, i was sooo pissed.

So i gave up. I was like FUCK THE WORLDDDDD AHHHHHHHHH.
So i was texting brian YOURE WORTHLESS and he was texting back YOU HAVE NO FRIENDS and im like SUCK DICK blahblahblah. it was hilarious.

Then my sister called again. Told me it was back on. My heart almost exploded. I was sooo happy. i called up Ryan<3 and told him the night was back onnn and we were going to crash the party.

(now i'll paraphrase)

Got ready, Left.
Got lost in a foreign town.
Found Ryan's house.
Won the Yellow game.
Heart explosions holding hands with Ryan.
Arrived at carissa's party.

Guitar heroooooo (i sucked)
Random Camera's going off in your faceee.
Kate got her heart broken TWICE.
My heart was stolen.
Mitch took the xbox back.
Most of the people left.
(I was happy, Ryan was still there)
We rolled around on the floor and people took pictures of us at the worst time xD

Ryan's ride home left.
We calledcalledcalled everyone with a car. No luck.
He had to call his mommmyyyy
I felt sooo bad.
He got in trouble D=
I didnt want him to leave though. I'm kinda happy his ride left, otherwise i couldn't have stayed with him for as long as i did.
But im still sad his parents are nazi's.

I might have found my romeo. =]
And no, it's not Tiffiny.
haha

I love you allllll.

-brea

Fabulous;

Snowdaze is coming up.
Gotta get fabulous with mah:
Nails
Hair
Makeup
Dressage
TAN!
lol =] busy busy busy

Also, i decided to go into PSEO next year, and my senior year.
Just to get a head start on the tattoo thing.
Plus after high school, im going to take up an apprenticeship at a local parlor while i finish college for that last year.

But the problem is, the next two years of high school as well.

I've straightened myself out. I HAVE to get good grades.
I realized that.

I've cleaned up my act.
All that's left is the future.

Here i come 2009.
Better watch yourself =]
Get ready for a take over.

-Brea.

This year;

i'm taking over.


The world is mine