Understanding the World (pt. 1) [i love you]

There are few things in this world that keep me sane.
One of them being music. Music in all forms.
The others are simply people.
Four people stand out;
I thought i'd take a little time to express my appreciation for them here.
it's not much but... i think you'll get the message.

Cathrine- My sister. My mindtwin. My Best Friend. We've worked hard for that title. Through everything and everything we've stuck it out. My favorite memories are memories with you. My favorite stories are stories with you. We grew up together. We know everything about eachother, without you i'd honestly be so lost. You keep me grounded. you keep me honest. No matter what happens you'll always be my sister, but i am proud to call you My Best Friend.

Ryan- If there was one thing in this world that keeps me at peace, it's your laugh. Most of the time im pretty sure you're laughing at how lame i am, but i dont care. You are so different, and i know it may be a bit cliche, but it wouldnt have been coined a cliche if it wasnt real. i feel like i can tell you everything, i may not get the response i was looking for, but it's something. It feels like i've known you forever, even if its only been weeks. you constantly make me smile, you constantly make me feel all tingly inside. it seems as a human, i wish for manymany things, and right now.. it seems everything i wish for revolves around you. i know you're probably reading this with a dorkass smile on your face, i want you to know that this is real. we'll go far. i know it. every time i talk to you, i wish it'd never end. i wish i could be there for you, for everything. so lets dork it up as much as possible =]

Steph- Omigosh. Steph,steph,steph. You are thee funnest chick ever. You're sooo awesomeeee. everything we do is so chill. I swear, me and you could make anythinganythinganything fun. Taking myspace surveys =] watching sean of the dead,
eating those weird chocolate booze things. =X painting up a storm. it may seem stupid to the outside world, but when you're in.... wow. i can't even describe how much fun you are. xD you are my best friend, and i wouldnt have it any other way.

Alex- Ever since we were kids, you were always the crazy one. You never shut up. You never listened to parental figures. You did your own thing, and got away with it. You can talk your way out of anyyything. Thats what i love =] every single day we hang out, its such an adventure. Sitting in my living room with guitars is an adventure in its own. Fond memories that i will neverever forget. I know we've sort of grown apart over the last couple months and im sorry. I want my best friend back, Alex. You were everything in my life. You're one of the few people that know the real me, and will stick around anyway. you always made me laugh in the stupidest ways possible. you could make washing dishes the funnest thing in the world. you're the only one that can talk me into packing my bags and roadtripping to canada for a weekend. i need you back in my life. Please. i miss my bestie.


And to Carissa:
I dont know if you'll read this but... i miss you. i miss our stupid conversations. i miss playing Dr. Phil with you and brian in random bathrooms. i wish i could take everything i said back. you'll always have a spot under "best friend" in my life. i hope one of these days you'll forgive me for being so selfish.

i love each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart.

goodnight world
-brea